there was something wrong w/ my internet, but now its back up

im currently at work, but im still trying to update RFB, and stuff

i now have wifi, so those w/ guitar hero and brawl, gimmy friendz #

-Adair

have you ever wanted anything so bad you were willign to look anywere for it...? and when you think you find it, with all ur being you want it to be real. but as soon as you feel the courage to actually touch it... its fake. an illution of your deprate mind. dont youhate that? people sometimes even know the thing isnt real and lie to themselves and say it is. its just so hard... even when the crazy mind game is gone... ur still standing there waiting for it to come back... just to feel that moment of happyness... like when you have a hand full of water while being dehidrated in the desert, the water still seeps through the fingers. and youdont care you just want a drink, then when the waters gone... its gone... no mater how bad you want it to come back you know its gone, but still... you sit there hoping... hoping. having the ability to see the fakes is just a thing to many people... having the ability to see the fakes and step back from it is a true gift. but to many... all you can really do... is sit and cry.. just cry... even though it may not help... its way better to be emotionless... because when you are emotionless you cant feel anymore once the illution becomes real. when its real you always ALWAYS have that doubt in your mind, that very thing that keeps you from feeling... from trying... from living... you cant help but think...

"its too good to be true"

its really cool because im going to turn 17 this thursday!!!!!

i just saw my god father today and im really excited. hes going to recomend me to a art school and my future looks bright! he works for worner bros. and i just saw his recent stuff. its really great i havent seen him scence i was knee high to a stack of crap. so now we will get to work on my style.wish me luck you guys ^^

now im all caught up on DA all the same as SA. and ill try to keep this site updated as posible.